The problem with working out

For me at least, there are several...

For starters, who really wakes up every day thinking, 'today, is going to be a spectacular day for working out!'? Not me, that's for sure. But don't get me wrong, I do enjoy working out, quite definitely. But let me run through my thought process.

Eh, I don't want to work out today, but I know I should.
I really don't want to work out today.
Meh, maybe I'll work out later.
I'm so bored. But I really don't want to work out.
:: hours later ::
Well, I still have nothing else to do, so I might as well workout. It's better than just sitting here.

Before any workout, I hate the idea of actually putting on my gym clothes and going to work out. But during my workout, I push myself as hard as I can for as long as I can. But the problem is, is that usually once I'm done, I never feel as though it was enough. 10 minutes after I'm done working out and have showered, the only thought on my mind is going back downstairs to workout even more until I'm happy with the results. My problem? I have a hard time grasping the idea that results don't just happen overnight.
I hate getting myself to work out. While I'm running and jogging, and everything else, I have a hard time getting myself to stop, and once I'm done, I'm hardly ever happy with what I did. Most of the time I wish I had done more.
I hate working out, but I do, then when I'm done, I'm convinced it's just not enough. If only I had done a little more.
Tonight I ran/jogged two miles and did 100 squats in the matter of approximately half an hour, among other floor exercises, and tonight is the first night in months that I actually feel pleased with what I did in a matter of one workout.  But looking down at my legs in the soft glow of the computer screen, they do look better than they did even a month ago, so I am slightly pleased about that. The one thing I strive for in a workout that I rarely get, but I do have tonight? The post-workout pains. (: The feeling of stretched muscles that will repair themselves overnight(: That is the one feeling that I strive for in a workout, but I hardly ever get anymore. But tonight, I got just that, so I will go to sleep one happy camper. :D

My gosh, my head is one major contradiction.

What gives you the right?

People who have the nerve to sit in front of a computer screen and type things like, ‘You need to kill yourself,’ ‘why are you still alive, you’re worthless,’ and ‘have you ever tried killing yourself, because you really should’ absolutely disgust me. Just because you’re on the other side of the computer and don’t see the immediate repercussions of those words doesn’t mean that they don’t hurt someone. Just the thought of someone even thinking about sending those kinds of thoughts to someone makes me want to vomit. But those of you who actually think it’s okay to voice those thoughts out loud? So you may have the freedom of speech, but what gives you the right to think it okay to cause someone to want to take away their freedom of life. Every life is special, whether you think so or not. And the fact that you then think it is okay to send ANYONE at all hate mail, texts, threats, is beyond revolting. What makes you think you’re any better than anyone else? What makes you think you have the right to cause someone to push themselves over the edge. You never know the battles that someone is fighting.
Just because you don’t like someone, give you absolutely NO RIGHT to tell someone that they aren’t worth the life they have been blessed with. Someone out there loves them, just as someone out there loves you.
&Just because you might not think that those words truly impact someone’s life, does not, in any way, shape, or form, give you the right to tell them to end their life. And the fact that you have even thought this about someone, is absolutely revolting.
So the next time you feel it’s okay to sit behind an anonymous, grey face on tumblr, telling someone that they’re not good enough, why don’t you just pray for them? Pray that whatever it is that you don’t like about them, gets improved. Pray that they get better. Pray for them to improve their life, not that they end it.
Everyone should watch the movie ‘CYBERBULLY’ with Emily Osment and Kay Panabaker. It jsut might hit you the kind of effect that your words can have on someone. And it just might cause a change in you. But next time anyone goes to send hate mail to anyone, just think that you could be the one person to finally push them over the edge. Do you want to be the one that basically took someone’s life? Do you want to live the rest of your life, knowing that the hurt and suffering of so many other friends and family members of this person will forever be on your conscience? No.
So next time you go to send something like that to someone, wishing for them to take their life, turn around and pray for them.

&You say the weather here is normal?

I wake up: Snowing
I get out of bed: Sunny with snow on the ground
I leave for Church: Breezy
I get to church: No wind, sunny
I get out of Church:Windy and freezing!
Get to restaurant: Breezy
Get out of restaurant: Sleet, wind, and suckiness
Come our of Kohl's: (See Above)
Get home: Overcast, breezy
Now: So snowy you can't see anything, windy, absolutely no snow adding up to anything, and suckiness

Cool, Colorado. Way to be.
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