WHO DO YOU SEE?

When you see me, what do you see? A girl who keeps to herself? Who has her small group of friends, but has no problem going out of her comfort zone?

These are just a few of the questions I ask myself when I'm alone. When I walk through the halls, or drive into a parking lot, what do people think? Some people would say I have many sides, or faces, but it's not true. It's called being a girl &having different moods. I feel certain ways after certain things happen.

This isn't going to be a post all about who I am, explaining me to everybody in the world. Call me old fashioned, but I believe that if someone wants to know something or someone, all they have to do is ask. It's not that hard, I promise. I've been told that people are scared to ask me something because they think I'm going to judge them, or laugh at them, or something equally low, but I hate hearing things like that. Those kinds of things just tell me that people really don't know me as well as they sometimes let on.

I'm the most laid back person and usually just go with the flow, but there are times when I can't keep my mouth shut. I know what I believe and I won't just sit back when somebody is talking crap about something they know nothing about. No, I'm not the smartest girl in class, but when I talk, I know what I'm talking about. I'm by no means uptight, that I can promise you.

I've gotten PRO at laughing at anything and everything, especially myself, but if you know me, you know that very well. I laugh at just about everything, and I have a very wide range of humor. I get jokes fast, and will remember them forever. I like tacky pick up lines, cheesy quotes, and extremely eye rolling worthy things that people say to me. I have learned that there are two things that will ever get me through life: Laughter or Tears. 99% of the time I turn to laughter, but every now and then, there's nothing more heartwarming than a good full out bawling session. Hey, I'm a girl, what can I say?! ;)

I'm low maintenence &want only two things out a relationship: Trust and Love. I want someone who will earn my trust and won't betray that in a second. I want someone who can trust me wholeheartedly, and will love me despite my flaws and my countless mistakes. I want someone who will be there for me after everything with a smile and a hug that can last for hours. I want someone who will be there for me for everything, and make sure I know that every day. I want someone I can count on, who knows that they can count on me. I don't change my mind overnight, and when I commit to something, I do it entirely, with everything in me. I want someone who will make pinky promises with me, and will keep those promises no matter what happens. I want someone who can look at me &know when something's wrong, and will fight to get it out of me.

How can a guy win my heart? It's really quite simple. Laugh with me. Make me smile. Remind me everyday that he loves me, and why I love him. Make me happy. &ALWAYS keep a promise. Trust is something very important to me. If I can't trust someone, it will never work out.

"A promise means everything, but once it's broken, sorry means nothing."

I need someone who will argue with me, but NEVER doubt my feelings. What most people don't know is that I love to argue and fight, but it has to be about something important. I won't argue about nonsense. I'm very strong in my beliefs and I know what I want, and I will fight to get just that. I want someone who will yell at me when I'm irritating and not worry about hurting my feelings. I want someone who will hurt me for all of the right reasons, but be there for me to run to when someone else hurts me and be ready to kick ass for me. I want someone that I can count on at all times of the day.

So, I will ask you again. When you look at me, what do you see?

A stuck up PC girl?

A fighter, or a lover?

An argument waiting to happen?

Someone who knows how to have fun?

A writer?

A photographer?

A girl who has dreams that are too big for this town?

Someone who wants nothing less than the world?

Go ahead and judge me, but there will always be things everybody won't know about me. When you look at me, would you believe I love piercings and tattoos? Would you believe I'm going to marry someone in the military? Would you believe that the only person I dare call my best friend is my brother? Would you believe all of this, or none of this? It doesn't matter to me what you think about me, but do me a favor: Before you write me off, sit down with me and have a conversation with me. Then make up your mind about me.

But until then, what do you think when you see me?

DO YOU EVEN SEE ME?

I see you. Everywhere. In school, during lunch, in your car, during games, and in my dreams. I see you everywhere, but I fear you don't see me at all. I try to do thinkg to get your attention, but is it enough? Do I need to do something more drastic just so you will look at me? I hate this feeling. I know we never talk, but is it a bad thing to want that change?

I don't know what it is about you, but I want to get to know you more. You're a basketball player, you have a cute smile, according to my friends, a nice ass, and a certain mystery about you, and maybe that's just it. The idea that you're not easy to get makes it fun to watch from afar, but I'm getting tired. I just want to talk to you and know if you even know if I exist.

I want to know if I'm wasting my time, or if being in lust with you is actually worth all of the suffering I put myself through. You're cute and something about you just pulls me closer and makes me even more curious every time I see you.

You're not loud or begging for attention, like most of your friends...

You're not the starting player at the games like your friends...

You're not always hitting on random girls, like your friends...

You're different, and I like it. I find it extremely appealing and attractive.

So if all of this is true, what does a girl have to do to get you to smile at her?

I know you know who I am.

You look at me in the halls, we race down the road when it's just us and our friends, I freak out when I pull up next to you at an intersection after a game...

So what else do I have to do to get you to see me? I'm a bold person, unless it comes to guys like you. You make me nervous, without saying a single word. I saw a guy that looked like you and my stomach dropped below the floor; I hated the feeling.

I know this sounds cliche, but you make me feel like I haven't felt in years. There's something intriguing about you, but I can't put my finger on it. It seems like everything I do reminds me of you. I want to get to know you, but will that ever really happen?

Is my little 5 year old crush just a waste of my time? Do you like another girl that you think is out of your reach? Do you think all of these things when you see me? Do you even see me at all, or am I just another girl in the hallway?

I see you everywhere and it kills me everyday. I want nothing more than to spend a little time with you: to see what makes you laugh, what makes you tick, what makes you roll your eyes, and what makes you fall harder than you would ever want to . I want to know you, I want to see you in a way your friends don't, but do you want the same? Do you even recognize me when you see me? Do you see me at all?

--MReed

WHAT REALLY MATTERS?

Okay, so I may not be the prettiest girl in school, or the top of my class for graduation, but does any of that really matter? Is that the only way to steal someone's heart? Well, if it is, it's truly sad. Are looks really that important to people that they won't look any deeper than physical attraction? I love a quirky guy, and someone that can make me laugh. Sure, it matter to be physically attracted to someone if you want anything to come of it, because if you don't want to be seen with the person, it's going to effect you, guaranteed.

But come on, are looks the only thing that matter anymore? We all see the hottest guy in school dating all of the 'popular' girls that never treat each other the right way, when way over on the side lines are the girls that would give the guys their whole hearts and would treat them right. Sure, I may not be the prettiest girl in school, by far, but I know one thing for sure: if you have a weakness for laughter, I will have your heart in a heartbeat. I believe laughter should be the way into someone's heart... My weaknesses in a guy are few and far between: Deep blue or intense green eyes, a killer smile, or a quirkyness about you. But the easiest way to steal my heart, and my attention? Make me laugh.

Should looks matter, yes, to a certain extent, but if you can't laugh with somebody, laugh at yourself, and be able to let go of yourself completely, will it really work out?

I see all of the gorgeous girls around me, who date all the attractive guys in school, but will any of those relationships really go anywhere? They like how the other looks, and they're both great for arm candy, but do they actually LIKE each other? Most likely not...

High school is good for infatuation, lust, and thinking you're finding what you want, when in reality most teens just do what they think their peers will approve of. What's so wrong with being different? I laugh like I'm high on drugs: I'm high on life. I smile like it's going out of style: What's the harm in showing off your happiness? Who says they need someone else to make them happy? Why do people think they won't be happy unless they're in a dramatic &highly stressful realtionship? Have you ever heard of being carefree and just having fun with friends?

The way to my heart? Eyes, SMILE, Laughter, and knowing how to have a good time.

"You know I got my own life &I bought everything that's in it. So if you wanna get with me, it ain't all about the bling ya bringin'. I want a love that's for real, and without that, no deal. Baby I don't need a hand if it only wants to grab one thing. The more you try, the less I buy it. I don't have to think it through, you know if I'm feelin' you. I don't need a man to make mit happen, I get off being free. I don't need a man to make me feel good."

So, what makes you tick? What do you look for in someone that makes you go completely gaga? What makes you fall head over heels? What does someone have to do, in order to win YOU over?