CONSIDER THIS YOUR WARNING!!!


This blog may be harmful to those who are nice to everybody, every second, of every day. If you love drama, keep reading. I will get heated, I will voice my opinion &for once, I WILL name names. Ready? Let's go.

TSwift--Mean
You, with your words like knives
And swords and weapons that you use against me,
You, have knocked me off my feet again,
Got me feeling like I’m nothing.
You, with your voice like nails on a chalkboard
Calling me out when I’m wounded.
You, pickin’ on the weaker man.

Well you can take me down,
With just one single blow.
But you don’t know, what you don’t know,
Someday, I’ll be living in a big old city,
And all you’re ever gonna be is mean.
Someday, I’ll be big enough so you can’t hit me,
And all you’re ever gonna be is mean.
Why you gotta be so mean?

You, with your switching sides,
And your walk by lies and your humiliation
You, have pointed out my flaws again,
As if I don’t already see them.
I walk with my head down,
Trying to block you out cause
I’ll never impress you
I just wanna feel okay again.
I bet you got pushed around,
Somebody made you cold,
But the cycle ends right now,
You can’t lead me down that road,
You don’t know, what you don’t know
Someday, I’ll be, living in a big old city,
And all you’re ever gonna be is mean.
Someday, I’ll be big enough so you can’t hit me,
And all you’re ever gonna be is mean.
Why you gotta be so mean?

And I can see you years from now in a bar,
Talking over a football game,
With that same big loud opinion but,
Nobody’s listening,
Washed up and ranting about the same old bitter things,
Drunk and grumbling on about how I can’t sing.
But all you are is mean, All you are is mean.
And a liar, and pathetic, and alone in life,
And mean, and mean, and mean, and mean
But someday, I’ll be, living in a big old city,
And all you’re ever gonna be is mean.
Yeah, Someday, I’ll be big enough so you can’t hit me,
And all you’re ever gonna be is mean.
Why you gotta be so ?
Someday, I’ll be, living in a big old city,
And all you’re ever gonna be is mean.
Yeah, Someday, I’ll be big enough so you can’t hit me,
And all you’re ever gonna be is mean.
Why you gotta be so mean?




This is my one ranting session I will ever do on this blog. This is the only time I will name names. If this post is ever seen by the wrong person, I can guarantee, this won't make things better, but to be frank, I'm sick and tired of walking on glass to make people happy. I'm pissed &just downright furious, so here goes.

Laurin Speight. Ramzi Bahu. I can't stand you two. You are the most bipolar people I have ever met. Yes, go ahead &try to make me jealous with you two being in 'love' and planning on moving to Cali &having a baby boy. Yeah, it's not working. I have no intention of EVER being jealous of people that can't stand to talk to each other, yet can't be away from one another. &yes, I did just delete you both from my facebook friends because I can't stand the sight of either of you. Work is bad enough, I'm not going to let you interfere with my personal life too.

Laurin- You think you can out bitch me, but you think wrong. You are a passive aggressive bitch who has to spread rumors to make friends. Ya, well, just so you know, I don't care anymore. You think you can spread rumors about me at work, & talk crap. Go right ahead. At least I know that at the end of all of this high school drama, I will know who my true friends are. Cliche? Yes. But very true. You can have Ramzi. I never wanted him. You have fun being a teenage pregnancy, have fun being his baby mama, and have a GREAT life. *Heavy on the sarcasm, just in case you didn't catch that. You're s stupid, passive aggressive bitch, &have no real friends. People just hang around with you because either 1.) they think it'll make them look 'cool' or 2) they're afraid of what you'll do to them if they get on your bad side. Consider me officially on your bad side. Wanna hurt me? Wanna try to make me want to kill myself? Go for it, I dare you. You don't have that kind of power of me, &if you really think you do, then you're pathetic.

Ramzi- You're the rudest guy I've ever met. There are girls who don't see you as a player, but truth is, you WANT to be a player. Honestly, what kind of person strives to play girls? You are the kind of guy that I avoid at all costs, &truth is, it's worked out pretty well thus far. But you go around being 'in love' with Laurin. Yeah, how's that one working out for ya?! Not well. I can tell you that much. She did lie to you, &she will continue to lie to you. She made out with a guy at work, and went on a date &made out with another. Don't believe me? Just ask around.

You guys are the reason that people are mean to one another, but seriously, what's the point? What does this do for you, Laurin? Prove that people listen to your stupid drama, that's probably not even half true? Well good for you. Tonight, I already learned who one friends WASN'T. &I thank you. If you hadn't started this whole charade, then I would still be going around calling him my BFF. Glad that's over! Well that just makes you awesome, now doesn't it.

Bottom line: You both are a hand full, and are the only ones who can really deal with each other. You were probably meant to be together because you're both a pain in the ass, neither of you are worth my time, &as of right now, the only time I will ever see or talk to you is at work, and that will only be as the last resort. I have deleted numbers, FB friends, and all memories with you both. I thank you both for this incredibly stupid drama. It's taught me about myself, who to trust, why I have so many walls around my heart, &who really will stick by my side through thick and thin. So, THANKS!

You are both pathetic, immature, and I can't wait to see what kind of kids you'll produce. They'll be bipolar, rude, have ZERO friends, &nobody will like them. HAVE FUN WITH THAT LIFE! Goodbye.

LIVE.LAUGH.
LOVE.LIFE.


"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

What's your biggest fear?
Some people would say things like death, spiders, clowns, or something along those lines. My biggest fear, is being forgotten by those that I will never forget.
I fear that once this part of my life comes to an end and all of my friends all go their separate ways, I fear that they won't remember me. We all say to the people closest to us that we will never forget each other. That we will always remember the time when...
But who's to say that once we're all away from each other, that those promises won't fall to the back of our minds?
There are so many fears that I have, but I have learned that there is no life unless you learn to live despite those fears. But there is one thing that I fear, and can't help but think about every day; that the people that I can't imagine my life without, will one day carry on with their lives as if I was never there.
So I have made a decision. I came to this conclusion earlier this year, and plan to stick to it wholeheartedly. From here on out, I will be the best person I can be, and there won't be anything that can cause me to waiver from that.
I spend my days laughing and making stupid jokes. To me, there is no greater satisfaction than making people happy. I know that there are a lot of things that I do that are way beyond some of my friends comfort zones, but if they can look at me and laugh with me when I make a complete fool of myself, then I'm a happy person. I have learned that the one way to make myself feel good, and to be comfortable in my own skin, is to make my friends and family laugh. To me, there is nothing better than the sound of laughter.
I know that someday all of the memories I'm making now will slowly fade, and people will eventually forget. But as the quote above says, people will forget what I say. They will forget all of the things that I say to cheer up their days, all the stupid things I say to make their days better. They will all forget the stupid things that I've done, and that I will do. I will always be stupid because I love it; it makes me happy, but someday, my dearest friends will forget all of the things that I do to make them laugh. BUT, I believe that no matter what, when they're looking back at pictures or yearbooks &they see my picture, they will always be able to say, "I remember when..." I hope that 50 years down the road when people think of me, there will be that small smile that can't help but make its way onto their faces. I hope the things I do now to make people laugh, and what I do to make fun of myself will always stick with them. I believe that words are easily forgotten, and memories fade, but feelings are eternal. There are some things that just never leave us. I want to be the person that people remember and think, "Lydia... that girl sure was crazy, but she never failed to make me smile." I want to be the one that will cross their minds occasionally. I don't want to be the one that they think about every second of every day, no. I want to be the memory that only comes once in a blue moon, but one that they will always remember.
I fear that one day, my friends will forget me, I just hope that they never forget how I make them feel, good and bad. I don't want to be remembered for just the good, because that's nothing to be remembered by. I want people to think of me and know that even on my hardest days, I still did everything I could to smile.
I know that I will one day forget the people that are in my life now, but I wish to always be able to remember them at one point or another. I don't want to be a start that is constantly shining in someone's memory. I want to be that one meteor that crosses their mind once a year, but gives them something to laugh &smile about for a day. I want to, eternally, be the one that can make people happy.
A smile is the strongest thing in the world. It can change a day, an outlook, or even a life. So why keep yours hidden? I plan on sharing mine with the world for a lifetime &beyond. What will you do with yours?

PATHOLOGICAL
LIARS.

I just love how people can go around spreading rumors and starting drama, but still manage to blame it on everyone else. I love how people can go around doing things, but then lie straight to someone's face about it, &not think they're going to get caught.
So sue me for trying to be a good person, and warning the ONE person you're lying to and for telling them to be careful in trusting you. I should have known though that he wouldn't trust me. Why would he? In his mind, you're never wrong, and I always am. Too bad for you though that I have people on my side that are willing to prove to everybody that I'm telling the truth. You say that you're going to make my life a living nightmare? Have fun trying. You can keep on with your stupid &extremely immature drama. It's so stupid and I'm not getting involved. I know that what you're going around telling people is far from the truth. If people want to believe you over then me, so be it. At least then I'll know who are real friends, and who were just standing by my side as long as people were looking at them too.
We live &we learn. I'm prepared to take this as just another lesson. I have learned about myself just this: I will go into any friendship or relationship assuming that the other person will always be truthful to me. I like to believe that there is good in everybody, but maybe there isn't. You're so proud of being the bitter person that you are, I just want to know why. What satisfaction does it give you? Are you happy knowing that he trusts you &will never speak to me again? Does it make you feel proud knowing that some people will stick by your side, even though you're telling the truth, just because they have faith in you?
Fine, so be it. I know that the friends I have at the end of this whole thing are true friends. You turn people against me? Turns out they weren't meant to be in my life. You have fun with your stupid drama, I will keep on with my life.
I enjoy being a happy person, letting very little truly get to me. Keep trying, but people like you make me laugh. You think that the world revolves around you. Well, honey, one day you're going to have a very rude awakening. One day you're going to meet your match, and then you'll see where I'm coming from.
But until that day, you have fun trying to make my life a living hell, because I won't let you. You may think you run everyone's life, but you don't run mine. It ran just fine before I met you, &it won't change now that I've seen who you really are.
I hope you have a nice life, and one day you find someone that will be worth the truth, no matter what. I hope one day you become comfortable enough in your skin, that you won't have to lie to everyone around you. I hope one day, you find the one person that will call you on your bullshit, and will love you despite all of the stupid drama. Until then, this is goodbye.

--LSpeight